22 April 2009
I (Heather) am not nearly as fond of speaking. I try to be careful about what I say when I want to be clearly understood. I don't want to flub...I might change some one's perception of me! Mostly, I don't want to be wrong.
But God is teaching me something this week. My audience, small or large, hears what God wants them to hear, and I have to trust Him in that.
For the last two years, I have been running the creative activities program for our MOPS (Mothers of Preschoolers) group here in Woodland Park. I enjoy using my creative talents to come up with things that most of the moms will enjoy during a given meeting. (Lesson already learned: you can't please everyone!) This includes getting on stage with the microphone and explaining what they will be doing, hearing, or learning that day. I introduce people, I give the order of operations, I give instructions, and I always forget to say something. This really bothered me last year. I would feel like I failed because in my mind, I didn't do a sufficient job of explaining. So I tried writing down a list of what I needed to say. That helped some, but it never went as perfectly as I wanted. (Imagine that!) This year was a bit better...I didn't lose sleep over it, at least. (Literally...it was that bad.) It wasn't the being in front of people that I didn't like, it was the feeling like I never did well enough that got me down.
Now Jim and I are in this support raising process and our goal is to be able to sit down with others one-on-one and explain our passion, our call, our work, and our needs to help others understand better what we are taking off to do in 2010. It's pretty enormous pressure to convey exactly what is going on in our hearts to others on our own, without God's help. We were with another couple on Monday night and I was asked a question about my experience in Kenya in 2003 that I was totally not prepared for. In my mind, it was a pretty bad answer...I felt like nothing concise came out of my mouth. I stewed on it after we went home. I wondered what I should do. My perfectionist nature makes me want to sit down, really write out a good answer to the question and somehow make sure they knew my "real" answer. But that's a lot of work, and maybe a little awkward, and just not the thing to do! I felt God reminding me that he speaks through us, and I have to trust that no matter how uncontrolled I feel my words are, others hear what he guides into their ears. He doesn't necessarily perfect what I am trying to convey, but I must trust that my passion and our goals are clearly understood by those He has chosen to understand. And then I can say I did my best.
I'll be on the spot much more that I want to be in the next year, but it isn't about what I'm doing. It's about His work in Africa and how he has made a place for us at RVA so that the parents of the students we will teach and love can reach all corners of Africa and spread the good news. And when it's about God, I should just be jumping out of my shoes to spread the news about his work across the globe.
18 April 2009
Faith has brought us some laughter today...here's a glimpse into her personality...
She is walking around right now with a cloth napkin on her head telling us she's the wife and Joel's the daddy. Then she says to Joel: "You're very handsome, why don't you go fishing with your cracker?" (Jim says I need to learn from that...hmmmm)
After her nap time, she was dancing to the radio that was playing. She also listens to the radio during nap, so she is learning the songs pretty well. There's a Toby Mac song that goes "I don't want to gain the whole world and lose my soul." She was dancing quite enthusiastically not knowing we were watching and smiling, but then she saw us and says "But mom, it says 'I don't want to game the whole world and lose my soap!'" Oh we just couldn't hold in the giggles!
So maybe she's learning some Biblical lessons from those songs...maybe not.
Just don't lose your soap!
17 April 2009
14 April 2009
We gave Faith a fishing pole, here she is practicing in Grandma's yard. We were amazed at how well she could use it! Summer fun, here we come!We had a beautiful picnic for her birthday on Monday at Crawford Reservoir
Daddy at work!
We have been so blessed since Faith joined our family. We are amazed at what we have learned as her parents and grateful for her being a part of our lives.
A few of our highlights...
Getting all dressed up!And hanging out with cousin Natalie
He is risen!
10 April 2009
08 April 2009
That rug must be more comfortable than I thought...
06 April 2009
Today Jim finally had a "normal" day at school, and I've been home peeling and chopping carrots. I had some help cooking up 30 lbs of ground turkey this afternoon and I'm expecting a few moms shortly to help with the final preparations. But I suppose I should tell you what we are doing. Each mom at MOPS (Mothers of Preschoolers) will be taking home dinner tomorrow. We have 60 moms, so essentially I have food for 300 people in my house! They are making a soup to compliment a talk on nutrition they will be listening to tomorrow. I'm excited to be able to do this for the moms, and it has been fun to spend time with the people that have pitched in to make this project work.
Needless to say, we will be crashing on the couch tomorrow night. Last week was overwhelming at times, and there have been tears, but we have also felt blessed to be a part of the lives of others in this community, in the "jobs" God has created for us. We pray that he continues to work in us during weeks like this and mold and shape us to better serve the RVA community in Kenya.